The blast from the past

Assalamualaikum n Hello darlings...
If u r reading this entry now, a big clap to ur shoulder coz alhamdulillah we have made it through again this year...
I was browsing through my nostalgic diary when my eyes caught my diary back then in 1997..
Hemm... cant really figure out how old were i on dat time of d year but honestly i dont really want to remember much my sophomore year in highschool...
Argh d memory, the tremendous admirers,kakak angkat abg angkat nenek angkat n d list goes on...
And of course same goes with the frenemies...
Filem like *mean girls* creeping to my mind right now..
Yes, i remembered being an outcast,i remembered being *pulau, i remembered being hugged by a true friend who stand by me n teach me d world is not dat small.... for d true friend dat i've met along the way (u know who u are) i pray real hard to Allah for sending u guys to me...
Its not easy to be a teenager back then...
Always being judge and ended up being judgemental...
Today, i still feel d hurt...
Hubby always said, *by they r only teenagers so dont take it too seriously..
I was like seriously????!! (Ada nada dendam di situ)..
Noooo la... i moved on n i think these ppl have moved on...
Although im still friends *(u know FB is  very good at connecting ppl altho ppl that we refused to connect with!!!! pftt)..
I'm still very careful on everything..
And if i bumped into d list of kiddos *wic i-hate-d-most* back than i try  well simply to ignore or run!!!
No hypocracy NEEDED!!
Very very very immature of u ozelin!!!
I hope boo n bam will have smooth n sailing teenager time in future..
Maybe just like d golden boy daddy ok*
In short, whatever d past makes us today...
Kids teenagers n youngsters who r reading this, life is too short to focus on material things..
Boy crush girl crush that doesnt really matter....
U own ur destiny plus Allah plan for us..
For my dearest friend.. yus,izzah,atty,mimi, sham, naja n kak ana, terence,gg, ita,.kema.. u will owez have a love spot in my heart...
I used to admire gorgeous looking girls with gorgeous working bag while holding one cute baby on her other hand...
No eyes judging but only admiring eyes on u... stay dreaming n inshaa allah dat girl might b you.
To my frenemies out there... sokay, thanks to u i have become d girl dat my parents, hubby and kids are proud of..
If u have ppl repeatedly badmouthing u or owez *tak puas hati, just move on n enjoy d ride.
If they start talking, means u have something that they dont..
Lets give them *something to talk about shall we~
Tq again 4 reading this entry~

Lookbook 2014 dat i love d most

Salam ukhuwah and a very good afternoon to my darling readers...
I know im still into fashion talk nowadays..
Dont feel too sad n blue if u r those girls who wear only black shirt black shawl or black watevs...
Dat means fashion as well... albeit in a more monochromatic hue...
Im feeling a lil bit blue n down today but twas really a productive day for me.
Two completed reports meant d world to me..
Despite my gloomy uniform n few other important things running in my mind..
I owez create an imaginary world outside my jobscope...
Yahhhh.... my dreamworld of working in a fashion magazine...
Hence(macam la aku takda masa nak buat benda lain), i took screenshot of some of the fashionista out there well put together...
I guess a girl has to have a black fitting jacket in her wardrobe.. i have like 5 black jacket (bahahaha...nmpk tak tamak halobanya di situ).
Than jeans.. u know its trending to put on d boyfriend patched jeans.. (suar2 koyak2 tu bah).. n me being the polite wife went down n showed dat trending jeans to my hubby wif a hopefull look *anje can i wear this?*.. (he just rolled his brown eyes n said NO.byk lagi suar ndak koyak yg by boleh pakai).. ok noted..
The others d white boyfie shirt which luckily hubby approved of me wearing em (tutup aurat sbb dat loose boyfie shirt is errmmm well loose??) Have u guys bought one 4 urself? I think white shirt is always a wardrobe staple.. a girl must have...
Than goes one black working shoes (😈 i do prefer black in so many great design nowadays).. so go find urself a great working shoes. Trust me i have well 6 of them..
Last but not d least.. a working girl no matter u r working in d office or working at home u do know dat u need an essential staple working tote bag?
Ok swipe dat face (*totes what?!)..
Now2 calm down. U know d medium structured bag (yg ada keras sikit)
Aha!! Dat is a structured bag...
Please invest in one good bag ladies...
U dont need the high end brand. The most important is..its deemed workable...
I hope the above tips can be well implemented among us...
Be true be lovable n just b urself~

2015 ramblings

Assalamualaikum wbt n a big hi to my darling readers..
So apparently Ive been busy struggling my full time job as a working mother..
Despite my so called diet programme, my supplement taking etc. To date im still weigh at 58 kg!!!
Well still a looooooooong way to go sister.
I take it as a nearly successfull story since Im taking this weight loss suplement called IPerfcto..
I know ppl has been pinning me down to get the name of d product dat i consumed and here it goes iperfecto n radiance signature (for d extra glow).
Oh yeah....
Go google ladies...
Next year bam bam will turn 1 which means I can resume the treadmill, upper crunch, sit up u name it ill do it (sound super ambitious here though)..
Im sure Mr. B will definitely LOL when he reads this post.. darling if u read this im going to nail 49 kg next year.. do u copy dat sir?!!
Ok enough on me..
Do u have any motivation or target next year to be achieved??
Although I have plenty in mind (plus submitting budget proposal to hubby 4 next year.. must do that since im a shopaholic).. theres a lot of things that I have in mind...
One main aim is to read quran at least once or twice weekly...
Ozelin u have been very very bad indeed~
Lets start shopping for a new diary shall we n together we shall jot down our to do list...
In the meantime plz enjoy d OOTD ive taken throughout the year...
May Allah bless n grant us all jannah n may 2015 bring baraqah to everyone of us...
Love u darls..

On my kids education

Ok.. they maybe only 2+ years n 8 months old but being d superplanning creepy bonda i have my *dream to send my two babies in my dream uni.
Hahahaha... actually these are my ex uni and hubby's uni back then during degree n master time.
Recently, I just completed my one week course in UTM Skudai.. never once did i thought dat UTM is so breathtakingly beautiful..yah yah bcoz during my dating time wif hubby, he spent most of his uni time in his room "sleeping n more sleeping n mooooore sleeping vs studying" so nope never once he talked about d pretty marbeles UTM to d freaky me!!
So wen i saw d horse or more equivalent to equatrian spot i was like *WHAT?!!!!! Must send boo n bam2 here. Ok so d next thing dat bring tears to my heart is d newly built sport centre or was it d stadium.. i just had to control myself wen i saw d jump... (please refer to d awesome picture credited to google).
Well... although my heart still belongs to UKM n UPM i still secretly hope dat one of my baby will further their study here.
Plz plz Allah make my mommy dreams come true..
Ok peeps.. again its only a dream n im still contemplating to send Booboo to pre-scool thanks to d horror stories played in tv.
Tq 4 reading this entry darls...

Away from Home

This is it...
The moment of being apart from your children 4 work. I thought I will b stronger this time but hey who am i kidding..
ONE WEEK .. ONE WHOLE WEEK being away from your children is too much to handle.
I used to b d narrow minded person who thinks dat any careerwoman who is willing to work outstation most of d time n enjoys it must really not love their children!!
U know wat..shame on me!!!
Now I know how hard it must have been 4 them..
When I had to leave yesterday, I remembered waking up super early making food for bams, 😢 bathing her, feeds her while waiting for Boo to wake up and wail my name...BONDAAA...n my weekend has finally geared up.
I dont get to do mani/pedicure like d career mommy on TV. I eat d BEST collagen n supplements in town to make sure despite the sleep deprived, I still can manage to smile n be energetic 4 my little ones.
The look on booboo face when my hubby helped to dress her up in her best gown makes my heart weep.😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
Isnt she just d preetiest baby on earth or maybe not so baby anymore but Im going to miss her asking for my hp so she can watch her Frozen instagram (yup, she's a bag fan of prozen)..
I know now that its not easy to do this and while my wise sister advice would be take this chance for yourself as you need a break too i was like *what err ermm?*..

Yes..maybe its a good break.. n maybe I will appreciate my time with my loved ones more when I'll be away quiet often to make way for my career... But again, is this the sort of adventure that I"m dreaming of or I need to wake up and realized that maybe maybe the grass is greener on d other side??????

Whatever it is.. i miss my two babies......
Soooo sooooooo much~

Money vs Wedding n Marriage

The other ^guy^

Ehem...
I know im sorry.. im taking a long hiatus from updating my blog. Been really busy aiming for Allah knows wat..
Juggling career, two girls, two parents n luckily I am blessed with this imperfectly perfect guy..
While ppl r busy on a jet plane 4 d kaamatan long holiday, both me n Mr. B decided to just stay at our rental house in Tawau n d objective is to do nothing n enjoy more quality time with z kids..
Yup.. we did dat literally but Mr. B did most of the housework while I lazing around with d kids (talk about being a good wife)...
Being a *weekend* wife, my time with Mr. B is super limited. Sometimes daily we talked about our "office life" n shared stupid jokes with each other n d girls will take turn to go gaga wif him over phone.
Its not impossible being solo most of d time but I do miss d idea of staying together, making faces, cried on his shoulder (it has greater impact compared to crying over d phone).
Above all, its always my ultimate wish to stay together with Mr. B looking out 4 our two darlings woke up at night fighting with d pampers n squeashy moment.
But I agree that life has its normal sacrifice term, u give some u take some. To Mr. B, thank u 4 tolerating with my whims.
This entre is a tribute to all husby out there.. either u r a dad or yet to b a dad.. u know y we girls have choosen "you"...

About Love

Do you recall having d goosebump moment everytime the man u love or admired just walking pass by..
Feels like thousand butterflies in your tummy huh..
Or when he smiled (even if he's not smiling at u) makes your heart flutter or stop 4 a second..
If you said yes to all of the above u have been or in love darl..
I'm not going to reveal the fact dat i stumbled into a pool of mud during my highschool just looking at d boy i admired back then or my eyes just sparkled when i talked about him until i bore my frens to death..love actually is the most powerful thing one can ever experience.
It is so amazing since it can change you either to b a better or a bitter person.
I love fairytales and I do believe in magic.. theres always that special someone somewhere waiting to b found 4 everyone..see i can be unrealistic when it comes to love..
The truth is, when u have found love so what next? Is the 'marry me' song jingling in ur ears or you r just comfortable with what you have together? Will it be enough?
When I first married to d love of my life i told myself. I can do this I'm going to stay in love every second in my life. The problem is I lied. It takes a lot of effort from both of our side to stay all romantic lovey dovey all over again. With d pregnancy, wailing baby now babies, work, finances, family n friends we are just two super tired couple who appreciate sleeps more than anything in d world.
Therefore, the smartypants which is me (bahaha) try to get my partner attention by arguing (since he loves my daughters more) or just annoyed d hell out of him..I believe every relationship needs a lil push here n there to make it happen..
What hubby n myself like to do when the babies r finally finally asleep is just talk while eating n drinking our favourite food wic includes meggi n my fav drinks i.e. coke (i-cant-drink-them-now).Hubby knows my obsession on my smartphone n he will try to kidnap my darling note 3 whenever possible saying that it is needed to be recharge (hehe)..
We appreciate the alone time even if it means stealing few minutes or hours purchasing groceries so its only me n me that he cuddles (sorry boo n bam2).
Above all, love is full of meaning with no end..
No money in this world can buy happiness which comes from love..
And sometime..sometime loving doesn't mean to be together but letting the one we love to be happy with someone else..
I have found mine n aim to keep him for good..
Are you going to find yours??

Loving your Bodyshape

I remembered being told by a certain someone back than in uni that I have a not well proportioned body or my hair style is like in d sixty all wavy n brown (i couldnt help it.. im born with it).
That statements really hurt and i told myself look is not everything wat matters is wat inside ur brain.. I believed all of us have been through the "innocent & akward" moment. Dress with big plain t shirt and baggy khakis. Looking in awe at the other pretty girls wearing makeup and wear pretty clothes. Not that I dont have pretty clothed but I dont have the guts to wear such cloth. Even the mere mention of wearing shawl versus bawal at that time is considered too stylo or over.
How time flies n yes that definitely makes me know what dress or shirt compliment my body porpotion.
I'm not fat, I'm just top heavy. N if u said I'm fat, I'll ask Oprah Winfrey to slap u since she's heavier than me n curvy! I see many gorgeous women out there still not aware of what best for their bodies. Not every style compliment our body shape unless we are gifted with an hourglass shape.
There are: curvy, top heavy, i have a belly, pear shaped, ruler shaped, petite and super gifted one hourglass (lets not talk about em really).
To understand your bodyshape and which dress suits u best do some research. Listen to your besties or mom. They know wats best 4 u.
I have uploaded few pictures 4 u guys to refer to.. enjoy n no matter what shape u r in.. you are beautiful within n out..

When you are getting "OLder"

Sometime..age does not reflect the way you are thinking or the way you act.
Trust me, even the mind age detector application in facebook cannot tell d difference..
Have you ever encountered a person with a shallow mindset when you expect something big coming out from him/her?
Or have you met a young persona (barely out of college) but who speak of wisdom and actually share the same wavelength with you or at least can share a decent conversation with you?
That is why it is good for us to mingle with different age group of people be it a baby, children, teenagers or old folks as these people see the world in a different angle and perspective.
I know that as I'm getting older and wiser (ehem hopefully) I know there are times when I have to be extra patient, put extra effort in understanding, and ignore patty2 things which deemed irrelevant to my life.
I also know that when I'm getting older, I know how to bring myself in public (no akward moment me time) which outfit to choose, which dress compliment my bodyshape, which lipstick color suits my complexion n yes red shawl makes me look off white (like a ghost).
So bottom line, if you happen to meet a person which is immature (in your thinking) leave that person. Better yet unfriend them. If you happen to date a person which have a low opinion of u, leave that person you dont need a childish partner.
But you can't help to have a wee bit of an inner child in you every once in a while ait..
Life is about growing up and learning.. it just happened not all people mature in the same age.. sometimes you matured with life experience or your surroundings. Whatever it is, say hello to the more mature you. You know what I mean, less nonsense and more sensible you.
Until than darlings..
Let gaze upon my 'mini' me.. the immature part of me who likes to imitate her every 2nd while guiding her to b a great muslimah..

Assalamualaikum 2014

Its a fresh new start again and thanks to my super awesome forgetful mind i couldn't get any excess to my old blog. Perhaps its a sign to start being creative all over again..
Miaha..

2013 has been great to me in terms of work, love, family and friends.. pick up new bff which we ended up forming a new xoxo team. Loving them to d booth, hey its not easy to meet people who shared d same wavelength.. 

u know wat they say "great mind think alike".

Work is great, full of challenge and everyday feels like survival mode in a battlefield.

Sounds weird to be true ait.. life has never been easy. Not to mention that I have to fight the urge of killing people last year ( high hormones during pregnancy).. 

Anyway.. there's so much to say but too little time.. let these photos do the talking shall we..

until than peeps..