Eating Alone.. Dare or Dare Not

As my mind is still bloating of ideas on how to get creative with my resume (u know when the time comes for a change) u will get so focus n well at time like this mite b lost focus. Apparently that is just what have become of me.. losing focus..
So I decided to flip over my glossy magazine and one topic really caught my attention there..
*table for one, please?*

U can read the full story in her world magazine later..this is just another version of mine plus experience..

Anyway come back to the subject, how many of u have been dare enough to eat alone? Well if you are my bff in the past, u must also get passed my weirdness to dine and shop and walk almost everything alone..

I call it a me time.. hey dont get me wrong..i have awesome girlfriends back then to accompany me to eat to laugh to watch movie to jog u name it i have em all.. (ahhh... d good old days)

But i still reserve a *me time.. which ended up me dining alone listening to the music the restaurant of my choice played while reading my magazine or just gazing at people at my surroundings..

Yes n it felt awesome...

If u ask me if I want to repeat the moment i would jump n say *yes pls..

It gives d sense of empowerment that also as an excercise of awareness as who u are..

N nobody is judging u merely by sitting alone..

The best thing about doing things alone, you get to choose your limit, your taste and hey nobody will care if u take more than 5 meals in 5 different restaurants.

Anyway... if u havent try this u should..
I agree it always great to have companion but whats wrong of giving a treat to your goodself once in a while#

In my case if i dine alone in KFC nobody is going to steal my precious *kulit ayam but that makes u feel more stronger about ur feelings n urself...

Enjoy my entre n let me know on your experience..

Black boot...behind the scene story

Dear readers...

I'm sorry for putting less effort in updating my blog nor fb status...
It seems ive been frequented the field more than my life nowadays but alhamdulillah although its sometime hard but i know this is part of my job to provide additional moo 4 d family...

So last tuesday, with only RM 40 in my hand i went scouting for cheap boots..
U cant really bring ur ADIDAS shoe to oil palm estate daily rite or at least im not the one crying over the mud covering my shoes later dat day...

So in the shoe store while I'm trying on my new boots I heard a small plea from a little girl to her dady... somehow she wanted to purchase a frozen schoolbag..
I simply smile n ignored d plea as I assumed the parents will buy it nonetheless (referring to me n hubby).

When Im done and at the verge of paying the little girl started crying and the poor father try to calm her down n consoled her that he shall buy d bag next time when he has enuff money..

So d menyibuk me went to the kid n father while I asked the father how much is the bag. He answered about rm39.90 and he only have RM 30.. I said i shall give rm10 so u will b able to purchase d bag and quickly went to d cashier...

The father and d little girl rush to my side and said thank you. The little girl even hug my leg (as i was in high heels) so i hug her back..

Sometime even if its doesnt mean so much to us it might means a lot to other people...

I hope one day I can do more good in the world.. rm10 is nothing to be brag about but the sweet hug from a little girl gives 200% satisfaction. I feel like wonderwoman right that second...

Whooaaaaaa......

P/s: I forgot  to mention that since my boot cost rm22 +additional RM10 which left only RM 8 in my purse... luckily there's food stall wif  affordable price in lahad datu and my poor R&D assistant ended up paying 4 my meal.. TQ mahdi!!!
Sorry sy makan byk..teheheeeee

Until later dearie and thank you 4 reading my entry

The blast from the past

Assalamualaikum n Hello darlings...
If u r reading this entry now, a big clap to ur shoulder coz alhamdulillah we have made it through again this year...
I was browsing through my nostalgic diary when my eyes caught my diary back then in 1997..
Hemm... cant really figure out how old were i on dat time of d year but honestly i dont really want to remember much my sophomore year in highschool...
Argh d memory, the tremendous admirers,kakak angkat abg angkat nenek angkat n d list goes on...
And of course same goes with the frenemies...
Filem like *mean girls* creeping to my mind right now..
Yes, i remembered being an outcast,i remembered being *pulau, i remembered being hugged by a true friend who stand by me n teach me d world is not dat small.... for d true friend dat i've met along the way (u know who u are) i pray real hard to Allah for sending u guys to me...
Its not easy to be a teenager back then...
Always being judge and ended up being judgemental...
Today, i still feel d hurt...
Hubby always said, *by they r only teenagers so dont take it too seriously..
I was like seriously????!! (Ada nada dendam di situ)..
Noooo la... i moved on n i think these ppl have moved on...
Although im still friends *(u know FB is  very good at connecting ppl altho ppl that we refused to connect with!!!! pftt)..
I'm still very careful on everything..
And if i bumped into d list of kiddos *wic i-hate-d-most* back than i try  well simply to ignore or run!!!
No hypocracy NEEDED!!
Very very very immature of u ozelin!!!
I hope boo n bam will have smooth n sailing teenager time in future..
Maybe just like d golden boy daddy ok*
In short, whatever d past makes us today...
Kids teenagers n youngsters who r reading this, life is too short to focus on material things..
Boy crush girl crush that doesnt really matter....
U own ur destiny plus Allah plan for us..
For my dearest friend.. yus,izzah,atty,mimi, sham, naja n kak ana, terence,gg, ita,.kema.. u will owez have a love spot in my heart...
I used to admire gorgeous looking girls with gorgeous working bag while holding one cute baby on her other hand...
No eyes judging but only admiring eyes on u... stay dreaming n inshaa allah dat girl might b you.
To my frenemies out there... sokay, thanks to u i have become d girl dat my parents, hubby and kids are proud of..
If u have ppl repeatedly badmouthing u or owez *tak puas hati, just move on n enjoy d ride.
If they start talking, means u have something that they dont..
Lets give them *something to talk about shall we~
Tq again 4 reading this entry~

Lookbook 2014 dat i love d most

Salam ukhuwah and a very good afternoon to my darling readers...
I know im still into fashion talk nowadays..
Dont feel too sad n blue if u r those girls who wear only black shirt black shawl or black watevs...
Dat means fashion as well... albeit in a more monochromatic hue...
Im feeling a lil bit blue n down today but twas really a productive day for me.
Two completed reports meant d world to me..
Despite my gloomy uniform n few other important things running in my mind..
I owez create an imaginary world outside my jobscope...
Yahhhh.... my dreamworld of working in a fashion magazine...
Hence(macam la aku takda masa nak buat benda lain), i took screenshot of some of the fashionista out there well put together...
I guess a girl has to have a black fitting jacket in her wardrobe.. i have like 5 black jacket (bahahaha...nmpk tak tamak halobanya di situ).
Than jeans.. u know its trending to put on d boyfriend patched jeans.. (suar2 koyak2 tu bah).. n me being the polite wife went down n showed dat trending jeans to my hubby wif a hopefull look *anje can i wear this?*.. (he just rolled his brown eyes n said NO.byk lagi suar ndak koyak yg by boleh pakai).. ok noted..
The others d white boyfie shirt which luckily hubby approved of me wearing em (tutup aurat sbb dat loose boyfie shirt is errmmm well loose??) Have u guys bought one 4 urself? I think white shirt is always a wardrobe staple.. a girl must have...
Than goes one black working shoes (😈 i do prefer black in so many great design nowadays).. so go find urself a great working shoes. Trust me i have well 6 of them..
Last but not d least.. a working girl no matter u r working in d office or working at home u do know dat u need an essential staple working tote bag?
Ok swipe dat face (*totes what?!)..
Now2 calm down. U know d medium structured bag (yg ada keras sikit)
Aha!! Dat is a structured bag...
Please invest in one good bag ladies...
U dont need the high end brand. The most important is..its deemed workable...
I hope the above tips can be well implemented among us...
Be true be lovable n just b urself~

2015 ramblings

Assalamualaikum wbt n a big hi to my darling readers..
So apparently Ive been busy struggling my full time job as a working mother..
Despite my so called diet programme, my supplement taking etc. To date im still weigh at 58 kg!!!
Well still a looooooooong way to go sister.
I take it as a nearly successfull story since Im taking this weight loss suplement called IPerfcto..
I know ppl has been pinning me down to get the name of d product dat i consumed and here it goes iperfecto n radiance signature (for d extra glow).
Oh yeah....
Go google ladies...
Next year bam bam will turn 1 which means I can resume the treadmill, upper crunch, sit up u name it ill do it (sound super ambitious here though)..
Im sure Mr. B will definitely LOL when he reads this post.. darling if u read this im going to nail 49 kg next year.. do u copy dat sir?!!
Ok enough on me..
Do u have any motivation or target next year to be achieved??
Although I have plenty in mind (plus submitting budget proposal to hubby 4 next year.. must do that since im a shopaholic).. theres a lot of things that I have in mind...
One main aim is to read quran at least once or twice weekly...
Ozelin u have been very very bad indeed~
Lets start shopping for a new diary shall we n together we shall jot down our to do list...
In the meantime plz enjoy d OOTD ive taken throughout the year...
May Allah bless n grant us all jannah n may 2015 bring baraqah to everyone of us...
Love u darls..

On my kids education

Ok.. they maybe only 2+ years n 8 months old but being d superplanning creepy bonda i have my *dream to send my two babies in my dream uni.
Hahahaha... actually these are my ex uni and hubby's uni back then during degree n master time.
Recently, I just completed my one week course in UTM Skudai.. never once did i thought dat UTM is so breathtakingly beautiful..yah yah bcoz during my dating time wif hubby, he spent most of his uni time in his room "sleeping n more sleeping n mooooore sleeping vs studying" so nope never once he talked about d pretty marbeles UTM to d freaky me!!
So wen i saw d horse or more equivalent to equatrian spot i was like *WHAT?!!!!! Must send boo n bam2 here. Ok so d next thing dat bring tears to my heart is d newly built sport centre or was it d stadium.. i just had to control myself wen i saw d jump... (please refer to d awesome picture credited to google).
Well... although my heart still belongs to UKM n UPM i still secretly hope dat one of my baby will further their study here.
Plz plz Allah make my mommy dreams come true..
Ok peeps.. again its only a dream n im still contemplating to send Booboo to pre-scool thanks to d horror stories played in tv.
Tq 4 reading this entry darls...

Away from Home

This is it...
The moment of being apart from your children 4 work. I thought I will b stronger this time but hey who am i kidding..
ONE WEEK .. ONE WHOLE WEEK being away from your children is too much to handle.
I used to b d narrow minded person who thinks dat any careerwoman who is willing to work outstation most of d time n enjoys it must really not love their children!!
U know wat..shame on me!!!
Now I know how hard it must have been 4 them..
When I had to leave yesterday, I remembered waking up super early making food for bams, 😢 bathing her, feeds her while waiting for Boo to wake up and wail my name...BONDAAA...n my weekend has finally geared up.
I dont get to do mani/pedicure like d career mommy on TV. I eat d BEST collagen n supplements in town to make sure despite the sleep deprived, I still can manage to smile n be energetic 4 my little ones.
The look on booboo face when my hubby helped to dress her up in her best gown makes my heart weep.😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
Isnt she just d preetiest baby on earth or maybe not so baby anymore but Im going to miss her asking for my hp so she can watch her Frozen instagram (yup, she's a bag fan of prozen)..
I know now that its not easy to do this and while my wise sister advice would be take this chance for yourself as you need a break too i was like *what err ermm?*..

Yes..maybe its a good break.. n maybe I will appreciate my time with my loved ones more when I'll be away quiet often to make way for my career... But again, is this the sort of adventure that I"m dreaming of or I need to wake up and realized that maybe maybe the grass is greener on d other side??????

Whatever it is.. i miss my two babies......
Soooo sooooooo much~